Something in the water
My life has never been easy. I loved Jesus. I was raised in church. My grandmother was a big influence in my life. She was God fearing women was always sowing into me. The devil seeked to destroy me at a very young age. I was seven my world had been torn upside down by my parents divorce. I started getting sexual molested at 7 by a family member. Growing up I felt like I was put here as a piece of meat. I would try and eat make my self fat so they would have anything to do with me. That apparently didn’t work. This went on till age 13. My life was calm
After this but the scars on the inside never left me. I got married right out of high school. I had 2 daughters. Who showed me what unconditional love really is. My husband left me after 5 and half years.
After this I met Mike, he was a good man. We got together. We dated for a year. Then we got married. I started having a lot of pelvic pain. I went to the dr they couldn’t figure out what was going on with. The dr did a hysterectomy on me. I got addicted to the pain medicine. The dr had butchered me when he did the surgery. Not only that but I found out it was a bladder condition. I didn’t even need the surgery. After he got through I had to have 2 more surgeries to get fixed what he messed up. From then on I had an addiction to pain meds. This problem rocked on for a long time. I would get off the meds and would basically get right back on it. The doctors basically just passed me around. Then they eventually took me off the meds altogether. Then I heard her-ion was about the same thing so I started getting it. I let a drug dealer borrow my car. They got arrested in it. Mike got me out of all that. I stopped doing drugs. Then I was clean for about 2 years. We was helping to raise my step daughters baby. She got taken from us I got accused all over social media of being a her-ion addict. I was so depressed I went to my old friend and started again. On top
Of that the family member that molested as a child moved right next door. They pointed cameras toward our house. We feuded with these people for a while. The family was supposed to give me the deed to my place. They never did instead they tried to kick us out. At first we tried to fight it but it didn’t work. My drug use had got really bad. Mike decided he wanted a divorce then changed his mind. The first of the summer I almost had a overdose. During all this I had went to hospital was not in my right mind. I hit a security guard. They swore out a warrant for my arrest. The next day I turn myself
In. Mike got me out right away. We had separated. We were living apart. Mike had got so depressed. July 29, 2021 we were together that night. He died in my arms. I was so devastated it was the worse night of my life. After this I started speed balling. I was wanting to die. I never went back home. I had ptsd. I went to treatment got clean. I never touched her-ion again. I basically traded one for another. I moved around a lot. I had no hope. I blamed myself for everything. I thought my family didn’t want me around. I was ashamed to go home. I couldn’t face my family. I was staying with a friend in Birmingham. I was at the end of my rope. I hated God. In the mist of this he never left me. Jesus told me to hang on, that I was gonna do something big to help others get to Jesus. After that Mikes friend contacted me. He helped me get back in church and reconnect with my family. Here I am now, it’s been a long hard battle. The worse storm
Of my life Jesus never left me. Someone out there need to know the love of jesus. He died on the cross for me and you. I am trying to live for him. I am still a hot mess in some ways but I have something now that I never stop to realize. How much he loves me. He has pulled me out of some of darkest seasons of my life. I have been in jail and one foot in hell. I have been homeless. He was right there. I have had people take steal from
Me and leave on side the road. During this time he put me in front of 5 widows. He showed me that would survive. I got my mom and dad back. I also got my daughters and two grandsons. I have went back to college. I just got my certification in graphic design. I have been big into art for a year. I am doing what I can to glorify God. I wouldn’t be here without him. He will meet you exactly where you are. You don’t have to be perfect for him. He already loves you.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Romans 5:8 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/rom.5.8.NIV That verse reminds me of the transformative power of God’s love. It is indeed incredible how God’s love can transform our lives and bring us to a place of redemption and peace. The metaphorical waters of God’s love run deep, purifying the darkest corners of our souls and washing away the stains of our past.