A few years ago I dedicated some time and went to a retreat centre to spend some time with God, and pray about a number of things, including guidance about decisions for my future.
I didn’t know what to expect but I was at a time in my life when I was thinking a lot about what direction to take and I wanted to take some time to ask God about this.
I remember reading Psalm 38:15 and praying ‘what shall I do Lord?’ What happened wasn’t exactly what I was expecting.
I have often found that God has spoken to/guided me in different ways, sometimes through the words of friends, events that seem to coincide with each other, a passage in the Bible or occasionally through pictures that come in to my mind with a real sense that are not from me, but a sense that they have come from God.
When I was praying this prayer, I got an image of a big question mark in my mind, and then an image of an artist painting a picture on a blank canvas.
I had a sense that the question mark represented the unknown future, and that the blank canvas represented the unknown future of the rest of my life, with the artist in the image representing God.
It wasn’t what I was expecting, but I had a real sense that although my future was unknown to me, that whatever path I took God was in control and was the ‘artist’ helping to ‘paint’ my life. Then later that same day, I was walking around the same retreat centre and reminded of how God turns tadpoles into frogs and acorns in to oak trees, that all things are possible with God.
It wasn’t the exact answer I was hoping for, but it has helped remind me as I make the big decisions, and the small decisions each day, that God is with me, He is in control and that nothing is impossible with Him.